OCTOBER!

some said we are blessed with all year intense summer, i refer it as heat! but, i simply don't have the same thought tho! just not coincide with others's thinking. i dont buy it at all actually. as u r sweating to bed, happened to me just now, nothing to be happy with. global warming?? yes! globe is coated with co2 and its getting worse! fell asleep right after i came back from work, effing 5 hours of shitty sleep, i'm hell exhausted. craving for better weather! complaining.. complaining.. gosh, that's what i'm really good in! i guess, a need to stop that not pleasant attitude. complaining is not bringing any good..

work work work.. my life hovers around nothing else but reports, monitoring, calculations, analysis.. etc etc. all work related. improving urself, grabbing more knowledge, right decision making, and u r earning respect from others. a lesson so true that i granted for the past 3 months. pretty pleased as i was interviewed yesterday from the head of department for my confirmation. probation period is over and at least, i would say, up to boss's expectation. not impressive but sufficient. haha.. 

hmm.. was thinking on one hot and spicy issue thats abruptly taken my workplace into talking. a 5 years O&M contract in beirut, lebanon. as we placed a bid on the project, as the way the top management is projecting their point of views, it seems like we are ahead of other bidders. so, eventually, this issue prompted everyone that they stand a chance to be part of the team heading for middle east. relishing the prospects of better pay and to be abroad particularly, i know for sure everyone is eager to go. me too. hahaha. ok, i realized the fact that i'm way too 'green' and lacking alot, this and that. better not to think much about it.. coz i'm just not eligible for that.

its 12.45am, back in those days, i mean during uni life, probably time for supper. lol. gosh, i miss it very much! mamak with friends, chatting, laughing, gossiping.. a moment so not available anymore. damn, i have symptoms of loneliness! haha. i admit it, yes i really do. tendency to think of the past is unavoidable, thats me! a jeopardy i called it, coz it brings my brain into havoc. other word, cuckoo. haha. i 'm missing a never ending list of names. some particular persons, no doubt been thinking almost everyday.. dwelling in such feelings, not so entertaining rite? lol. be tough malcolm. a saying i hold on to now, 'don't cry because it's over but smile because it happened'. a wonderful feelings to know someone u love, u care, is doing great. do i sound emo?? haha..

before i leave.. wanna dedicate this song to everyone of you! pretty awesome song by colbie cailat. enjoy it and goodnight! hugsss!